Koh Lipe vs Koh Samui

You know, "Booking.com" the accommodation booking web has always mailed and said "Eyane, your summer is finally here". Nah, we have all summer days in Malaysia. Summer to me marks April to July, which is also -- beach time!

Okay I know this has been kept for too long for sharing.

I visited Koh Samui, Thailand in 2013 and Koh Lipe, in Thailand a.k.a little Maldive (as what people said) in 2014 with my family. They are both incredible beautiful islands but with different excitement you could have. 

1. Size, environment and transport

Firstly, Koh Samui is like the size of a city with 3 main attractions, Bophut, Chaweng and Lamai. With the size of a town, you could travel around the island with scooter or motorbike rented. People in Samui just ride as they like without helmet. I could say, when in Samui, do as the Samui-ans do. Enjoy the breeze brushing through your cheeks, and hair. *This is just Superb :)* However, for longer journey, it is advisable to go with tut-tut instead. 

On the other hand, Koh Lipe is a small island. You could save transportation fees a lot as shops and restaurants are within walking distance, which is very convenient. Lipe is still a new developed island, thus the sea water is turquoise blue and crystal clear. No joke. You could see the rocks in the sea clearly. This part, the sea, is definitely more beautiful than Samui's. We travel a lot on long tail boat and speedboat for sea sports in Lipe.    

I have never seen any sea water like Lipe before, really.

Long tail Boat, Lipe :)

2. Accommodation 

You could simply spot motel or hotel in Samui, lots of choices, even local might not know all of them. Well, I stayed in Akwa hotel, Chaweng beach. I still recommend to stay in Chaweng as it's a happening paradise, from day to night and vise versa. I love the ambiance of the motel, and it is stated in the centre of the town. To me, accommodation is only a part of the journey, and the purpose of travelling, is more than picking good bed. It is to explore the new place.

Directory from Akwa :)

Breakfast at Akwa, Chaweng :)

For Lipe, you will be amazed by the hotel built there. They are all quite luxurious. And best part of all, they are all built along the beach. The sand, the beach, the crystal clear water is just a few steps from your doorstep.

Hotel with private pool, Lipe :)

View from Hotel, Lipe :)

3. Food & Night life
Awh I miss the food in Samui! From Akwa, just walk along the street for food. You must try the roasted pork, with the crispy oily skin, and it is ALL-YOU-CAN-EAT along the street stepping out from the motel. A few restaurants are selling this and you just have to turn back to them when u passed by. Well, don't waste money buying fruit juice or water as you have better choice like beer and cocktails which is just around 40B - 60B (RM4-6.00). Singa beer is good, I like it better than Chang beer.

Night market is next station after dinner. It's also states in Chaweng. And I love the night market here. Did you see that? "Save Water, Drink Cocktail". This little stall selling cocktail in night market. Lots of Angmos were sitting besides with these in their hands. This is a must try too.

Cocktail, night market, Chaweng :)

Other than this, Fisherman Village in Bophut is another fabulous place to dine. It's a few mins ride from Chaweng, another food heaven. Majority of restaurants there are western, and they are built along the beach. Enjoy the sunset when ordering your food! I tried pizza at Le Gabanon, a theme restaurant with menu on an old CD Disc. Do spend some time to the Siamese-Buddhist temple there too.

Pizza @ Le Gabanon, Fisherman Village, Bophut

Not forgetting bar and clubs. Chaweng is a sleepless city. At first I thought "Green Mango" is a famous bar/club in Chaweng, as whoever u asked, they know where it is located. It turned out surprisingly that the bar and clubs are all built in one street. You have everything you want along the street. Bar-->Clubs-->Strip Club. Well, just forget about the strip club. DONT even think about going in there. haha you will regret.

Now saying about Lipe, Lipe is not as happening as Samui at this point. Lipe is very peaceful instead, it's meant for honeymoon, going with your loved one, walking on the beach, listening to the sea breeze, and counting stars. Lipe has all restaurant, bar, convenient stores in "The Walking Street". And many shops will not operate during low season in July August.

However, you must try the seafood there in a shop named, Progress Restaurant in the walking street. They served good BBQ crabs, king prawns and Tom Yum Kung. Crabs are about RM70 per kg (about 3 crabs), a bit pricy though, but they are GOODDDD!!

Super Prawn King

BBQ Crabs *Yum Yum*

Tom Yum!! My favourite :)

5. Activities you must try

Finally, there are many activities you can do in Samui. You should go Koh Nang Yuan if going for Snorkeling. It is a private island thus sea water is kept clean. But sea water in Lipe is still better comparatively.

In Koh Nang Yuan there is one interesting activity you must do. Climbing up rocks and staircases to the peak of the small mountain and you could see everything under your feet. The whole island. You know, I am adventurous, but I was scared like hell on the top as there is no safety precautions like safety gate at the peak. Perhaps I am scared of being blown away by the strong wind up there. Well, i have no regret putting my feet up there. The view is fabulous.

Peak of Koh Nang Yuan :) Okay la, camera 2 years back is not advance XD

Other than snorkeling, you should go for elephant riding too in Samui. It is mean thinking of how they trained the elephants to let you ride on them. But, it is a good experience. There will be an elephant trainer going to the jungle with you riding on the elephant. Each of the elephant has name. You will see how funny these animals are. They will just eat, and pee and poop while walking, and drink, and splash you with the river water. It is a trend in Samui to give the trainer tips for they will take a lot of pictures for you with the mammal along the journey. 

Elephant and us:)

You could also go for waterfall and go carting at the same jungle of the elephant riding in Samui. There are a lot of Angmos in Samui, with majorities of white people from France, Italy, Paris etc.One more interesting thing to visit in Samui is the Grandpa- Grandma Rocks aka Hin Ta Hin Yai in Lamai Beach. A penis-looked rock. You could try fish spa and massage if you have extra time. :) 

Hin Ta Hin Yai, Lamai

Talking about Lipe, it is really a good place for honeymoon which is also suitable for me to go with family. You know la, they don't club or pub. *Evil Grin* Main activities in Lipe is Snorkeling, sunbathing, massage and most of all, relaxing :) It is soothing listening to sea water splashing on the sand, lying your lazy body on the chair provided by hotel along the beach. Massage here is standard price of 300B (RM30) per hour :) 

Jumping shot with Fam during snorkeling session, Lipe:)

I will continue travelling to an island each year from now on :)
It depends on your choice really. I love both islands and would go for both again definitely. After working, Lipe is so much of my needs now. But on other times, I will go for Samui to know that I am still living young.

Bali tour in 2015 will *soon* be shared.
x.o.x.o

Bukit Tinggi

I have always heard people saying about Bukit Tinggi, the French Village, which stated somewhere in Pahang. Well I am not a geography person, but that does not matter. And beware, Bukit Tinggi is not Fraser Hills. They are absolutely two different places :)

The place is simple. Entrance free. Parking free. Weather breezy but hot when the sun rises. Size uhm not even a size of a small town. Regardless of these, you will be amazed by the structure of this place.

I love bricks. Classic. Simple. Nice. 

Yes, the entrance is like the entrance of a palace, with a bridge connecting to it.

Okay. I know exactly this pose is funny. haha

I was like a kid. Keep nagging to take picture with this blue wall just because of the colour, the matching with the white wooden window, and the whole greenery besides although it's just one pot. lol. I swear I will make this kind of window to my coffee shop if I own it one day. Someday.

You can easily spot this window on the right after the entrance. 

 Take two. Still don't feel like leaving. XD

This is the back yard with more greens. The purple leaves are everywhere literally and it is more chilling there at the back yard. A nice place for photography too. But. Feel free to put on mosquito repellent if you plan to stay there for a while. No joke.

Okay. I know it's all about my ss photos here. But did you see the bricks. Bricks. Bricks. Awh Bricks! 

 Again. Bricks. And cant-think-of-what-pose face XD

 And me. Again. SS. I know. 

And.. The hand of my photographer :) I have one great photographer didn't I? 

And finally, the Japanese village. The sun has gone too high up the sky. So jacket off. Just ignore the scarf. I was trying to pretend to be a Japenese wearing kimono. haha. There is shop providing kimono too that you rent one to take photography in the yard. Around RM20 for one. But I didn't try it as I wanna try the real one in the origin place of it. Again. One day. I will be there.

That's it. Bukit Tinggi. A place with nice walls bricks buildings smaller than a town and we waved goodbye spending less than 3 hours there. haha. You should go, if you are a fanatic of building and structure and so what photography.

Chilla. T.G.I.F.
x.o.x.o

Once in a lifetime

We were required to take a seat accordingly before stepping onto the stage. One batch down, and you knew you were waiting for your turn. The environment on that spot was pumping in something. Something which drove the adrenaline go faster than you could manage. "Yes, it's my day," I told myself.

Yes. It was my day. A day you were like a superstar.

Family and close friends were there for my graduation ceremony, not forgetting to mention, it was the day which I had received the most bouquet of flowers in my life, in my 23rd years of living. As I said, getting graduating is like getting married. Lots to prepare before the day, such as getting the academic huge purple robe, booking for family photoshooting, plus testing which formal wear that suits the robe. Ah, choosing clothing was the part I hated the most. Tried on this and that with the robe on and off, walking in front of the mirror for thousand times to get it done. Man, it's hot trying out clothing.

But I know, because I care. That's why I get nervous.

I was reaching kinda just on time before entering the hall after registering myself at the counter. The first thing after entering the hall I did was searching for my granny and papa who had gotten the two precious tickets to be seated in the hall for the moment. Dad was no-where to be seen,  but I managed to spot my grandma on the first row of guest seats. She was wearing cheongsam, even more gorgeous than anyone here in the hall I am sure. I was happy like a kid after manage to see her around.

We stood up when dean of our faculty got herself ready on the stage. My palms were sweating. I was very nervous. Very very and I just could not control it. Never thought that convocation would be like this. I have waited for long too, for this to come, even though I was not, and I am not prepared to face the real world yet. Our names were called one by one to get the 'reward' from the pro-chancellor.

Again I told myself, Yan you are great, smile when it's your turn.

I know it would be kind of weird talking to my own self like that but that was the only way to calm myself down a bit at that moment. We got our names checked on the computer screen before stepping on the stage. When my name was announced, I walked confidently towards the guy who was giving out the scroll at the middle of the stage. Cameras were everywhere to capture the moment. After getting the scroll, I smiled and walked to my seat as if I got myself lottery rewards.

Mom, I have made it.

Tears of happiness almost came out uncontrolled. I know, I know they will be proud of me I know she will be proud of me too for sure. I took plenty of pictures with my family and friends, and ran here and there to seek for friends for photography for the final times, before leaving this place where everyone will be reaching for their own goals after this.  

That was it. The convo. Once in a lifetime.

A path that seems to have destined. The life I am living now. Never have wanted the working life to come that fast, but I could not wait any longer, to accomplish my dream. And the only way to reach it, is to start now. Start building foundation, start allocate funds, start my new journey of life.

x.o.x.o

始。终。

每一件事情的发生，都有始有终，有开头，亦必定有结尾，不管你的那个结束是不是理想的结局。唯一不同的是，从“始”到“终”，每一件事情的经过不同。
每一件事情的始终长短不同。
每一件事情的始终给你的lesson和value不同。
每一件始终遇见的人事物也一样不同。
你自己有权利选择。什么时候开始这个“始”，什么时候结束那个“终”。

如果说分手是感情结束，那么旧情人送的每一样礼物是不是就也不算属于你的？那么，如果是这样的话，我几乎每一样东西都得更换。一些衣服·一些鞋子·那只表·那些照片·甚至脑袋的记忆，还有那颗心，都得更换。新的。
牛屎！（as in bullshit的意思）我钱多啊？呵呵。换得了的，也没几样。记忆和心若因为分手就要更换，那这意味着逃避，而你并没有从中成长学习。

旧情人常灌输我一个念头，结束有时未必是最坏的决定，它定义着更好的将来。牛屎。虽然不是完全没有道理。

如果说分手是感情结束， 那么它也意味着新的生活等待着你。另一种生活在为你打开那扇门。阿嫲在我跟她坦白的时候，安慰我说，“哭什么，你又不是没人要” 。当时的我掉泪，是因为我觉得我辜负了阿嫲，不想因为自己“没有男朋友”而让阿嫲觉得她又需要扛起那份责任照顾我。分手，反而让我看到身边一直陪伴的影子，一班对你好的朋友；还有对你永远不离不弃的家人，特别是我的阿嫲。大姐更不用说，她那个人永远比我想象中成熟，永远会撑着我。

我把照片收起的时候哭了。
我在夜里想起他的时候哭了。
我在收到他的简讯的时候也哭了。

但是，我很明白这是一个过程。所以很理所当然给自己时间软弱。给自己时间沉淀。给自己时间成长。

我不知道什么时候开始学会自己坚强。还是狗屁的逞强。在别人面前，总是很开心的摸样，很无所谓样子。因为始终没有必要让别人跟你一起伤心，不开心，然后一起哭泣。牛屎。这是EQ不高的人才会干的狗屁事情。就好像之前钱包不见的事件；接着外公外婆去世的事件；再来车子被偷的事件接二连三的降临的时候，你不坚强，要等谁来可怜你自己？没有人。而且可怜不能当饭吃。

所以我很开心我现在的新生活。自己成熟的去处理事情了。为自己的目标迈进了。虽然偶尔还是会停顿。会想念。

这篇，我写了很久。收藏了很久。
但，始终写了。始终应该上载的。

你的始终又如何精彩呢？

This is me。

站在原地徘徊了好久好久。

回头看看，我？成长了不少。

是时候往前方的路前进，为自己向前迈进。

我的人生目标很简单。

在死掉的那天以前，

让自己踏遍全世界，

每一个角落都留下我的小脚印。:)

单身其实也没什么不好。

因为在三年的旅途结束的时候，

我认识了容忍，和迁就。

曾为彼此努力的活着。

曾为彼此努力的付出。

但，分开，是理智。

新的起点，新的自己。

很有冲劲儿的出发！

给自己一点时间。

突破。

用自己的方式。

This is me。

打不死的Eyane。:)

x.o.x.o

My Lady 。

In my life, I have never adored an Idol truly, deeply and madly. However, there are two women that impressed me way very well from their movies, songs, their real lives etc etc... One is my favourite actress Angelina Jolie; and the other is Lady Gaga. 


第一印象
一开始对女神卡卡，也就是 Lady Gaga 印象没什么好。只知道这个女的很感露，MV几乎全裸那种，有点十八禁这样；而她脸上的妆每一次都很隆重，浓到非常“非凡”，根本不像她自己；还有那头善变的发型·颜色；还有还有，MV里面很奇怪的舞步。一开始对她的印象就这么多。觉得她只是个怪咔。

听了她的歌

渐渐的，爱上几首她写的歌。特别是比较新的歌曲好像《Edge of Glory》还有《Marry the Night》等等等等。很摇滚，很有feel，是我喜欢的那类型。我总以为她有很好料的producer在捧红她，给她好听摇滚的歌曲去演唱。到后来，很后来，我才知道这个女生是自创歌手。上网找了关于她的一些资料，马上对她360°改观。她很年轻，淡妆样子很好看。忘了是哪一集的American Idol她上节目自弹自唱，还超棒的说。然后在去年飞台湾的班级里面，偶然看到关于她的documentary，当时我真的彻底的敬佩这个女生。她也是一个没毕业就去来自己打拼，慢慢被挖掘的人才，一出道就爆红到现在。

这些不是重点

为什么我突然讲到女神卡卡？因为她即将在悉尼开世界巡回演唱会！演唱会开跑的时候我抱怨我的政府，因为那么多邻国好比泰国，印尼，新加坡，都有她的踪影。唯独马来西亚，她skip了。然后原本还想买票去到印尼观看她的演唱会，就是不懂为什么，只知道她的演唱会一定也跟她的造型音乐一样很非凡。

然后这个也不是重点

偶然在听Red fm以后，我的机会终于来了。什么机会？赢演唱会票房的机会来了。错过她在邻国的演唱会，都怪自己时间不定，又孤独一个人这样，所以也只有“想”这个念头。但这一次不一样。有机会到悉尼，有机会看演唱会，还有机会提早见到男朋友。这么好的刚好，为什么不搏一搏？我是这么想的。虽然真的，男朋友不是重点，重点在于，免费！免费！全程演唱会的expenses全包~~~~~~

这一次在悉尼的演唱会定于24日。所以在听到卡卡歌曲的播出以后成功在第24位发短讯到电台的，将有机会赢取票房。

为了她，我。豁。出。去。了。

重点就是这个

周五的时候第一次发简讯到电台，听了歌曲播出以后。当时像傻婆那样，很兴奋很兴奋，心跳一百，手还微微发抖。

万一我真的被选中我要讲些什么？讲halo？ 讲我很兴奋？

万一电台打来我要怎样接电话？我还在公司…去厕所外面？还是pantry？

万一万一真的可以去到悉尼看演唱会会怎样？

当时我真的这么想去。看。演。唱。会。

可是接下来我就很晴天霹雳咯。大失望咯。

Azura: Hello Brian, you're the lucky 24! 

什么？！我不是第二十四。T.T

隔天回到家的心情也没什么好转。还是失望。

开电脑以后却还是不死心的去开Red fm来听。那时两点钟。再try一次咯。我这样想。机会是偶然的吗。机会要争取的吗。

酱刚好听电台不久就拨卡卡的歌。将刚好我已经打便便简讯储存在信息箱等着发送。所以就以“爽爽”的心情发送过去。我想自己没有那么好运。我也不相信电台真的会选中我。

听歌听到一半突然电话响！！号码还是吉隆坡的号码。我想了很久才接。

Aly: Hello E-ya-ne, this is Aly from Red FM. 妈！！！我从椅子上跳起来。尖叫尖叫。她不会念我的名字。

Me: OMG OMG! So I'm the 24th!!我反应不过来，很不可思议！

Aly: Yes you are. So Eyane, now u're going to do me a favour. 

Me: Alright. *傻笑忍着不尖叫* 

Aly: What is the craziest thing u would do to go for Gaga? 

Me: *好不犹豫* I will go naked for her. *之前practised的哈哈哈*

Aly: Awh, u'll go to jail if u do so *laugh*

Me: Ha, I mean like this is a chance to go Sydney for Gaga, so I can go crazy just for her! *不停傻笑*

Aly: Waoh.. Seems like u're very dedicated to go for Gaga! So u stand a chance to win for the ticket and the winner will be announced next week.

Me: Thank you so so much! 

哈哈哈。哈哈哈。哈哈哈。这么好？是不是上天可怜我拔牙，又生ulcer，才给我酱好的机会？哈哈哈。

虽然还不知道自己会不会得到这个票房。但是我很开心很开心很开心。自己还在房间里傻笑尖叫了半个钟。我弟还跑来房间问我，二姐刚才谁打来给你？

哈哈哈。所以，祝我好运咯，下星期名单就公布了。呵呵。  

虽然嘴巴还是不能吃很多东西，但是，it made my day。

Photographs of the day

Special thanks to Drum King for the day accompanying me to places for photoshooting though we just simply wanted to have fun and not going through real photoshooting like the pro. Testing lens, testing skills. I really don't know how to pose so she got frustrated during the process. ha. *My bad*

I disallowed her to post photos to FB because I want to have these photos kept on my own in the first place. However, I think it's nice to share those photos *With my own edit* hahahaha. So here they are.

Do u know where are these places?
The first scene is the greeny garden in USM. Beautiful Tasik Harapan.
The second u should have known it from the last picture. It's Chew Jetty. Colourful, simple and nice. *The place I mean*

Had fun. Got tanned under the hot sun. But worth it after all.

I would like to take photographs of nice models next time. FOC for trying as I don't have professional lenses, but I do have semi pro camera that is ready to go.

x.o.x.o

原来我是这么怕血。

今天照了这两个礼拜里面，照的第三张x-ray。智慧牙的x-ray。
这一次不同的原因是不是照爽爽拍拍屁股走人。这一次是大工程。

为什么要照智慧牙？因为要拔掉。
为什么要拔掉？因为它很不听话90°这样横着长。
一定要拔掉的咩？不拔掉以后蛀掉的话可能会影响神经线。
做么酱严重？我也想知道。为。什。么。

四点钟的appointment，我们三点多就到达某某邱牙医那里。一开始的心情是很好的，拔牙而已嘛，有什么大不了呢？还在面子书上大大力po说自己准备好了。谁知道时间慢慢逼近的时候，整个空气都只剩下不明的压力和害怕。紧张到觉得自己的肛门好像要爆了那样，hold不住下午吃过的午餐，这样紧张。

到了“手术室”以后，我的脑海是一片空白。眼前又是一张青色的plastic椅。躺下以后就恐怖啦。我还来不及反应医生的下一步策略，他已经在我嘴里喷了一种液体。很快手的，在讲完“现在跟你麻醉”，就直接把麻醉针打在牙龈上。

第一针，智慧牙牙龈内侧。很痛！虽然针是细到要命；但也弄得我痛的要命。
第二针，智慧牙牙龈外侧，也就是连接着嘴巴的那块肉。他敢敢问我：“痛吗？”干。
第三针，另一边的牙龈。为什么打另一边？我不知道。
第四针，智慧牙上方的牙龈。他讲，“你看不痛的，有痛咩？”喂，你当然不痛啦！都不是你的肉。
第五针，智慧牙后方的肉。

就这样。一口气五针。怎样叫人不紧张？害我第一次在护士面前流了眼泪。觉得委屈了自己，为什么长了这样的牙齿，觉得医生怎么没有好好讲清楚情况就动手。幸好旁边的护士还一直安抚我说，没关系的，放轻松。

打了麻醉药以后医生建议我再照一次x-ray因为看不到我的智慧牙牙根到底长在哪里。他还笑我说，“你要今天做（拔掉智慧牙）吗？还是你要等你有心理准备先？”都来到了，难道不拔咩。我心里是这么想的。虽然真正就是怕到要死。当下真的有股冲动走出手术室说不干了。因为医生说，我的牙齿情况不是很好。它长得很大，是颗giant tooth，比较难拔掉。

第二次眼泪又掉了。“手术”这个词，真的好恐怖。

我妈还为了安抚我这么这么紧张的心情，跟我讲了爸爸也是个多么怕痛的人；还有弟弟以前进医院因为对药物敏感而产生幻觉搞笑的事件。幸好it worked一点点。

决定了就不能反悔。动手术吧。

回到手术椅上，护士开了那盏黄黄色的灯。再给我戴上一副很有型的黑眼镜。在等待医生的同时我还manage拍了一张照。哈哈。等到医生坐在我旁边的时候，紧张的感觉又回来了。 他一直在调整椅子的高低，然后又讲，再给你麻醉ok。再打了两针。整个嘴巴当时是麻醉到说话都有问题。嘴唇·舌头·脸部·都僵硬了，没什么知觉，吞口水都觉得困难，更不用说要开口说话。

“嘴巴开大大” 牙医最喜欢的一句。

我很努力讲“啊”的时候护士就塞了一块不知道什么东西进嘴里，放到另一边的牙龈，以便撑开我的嘴巴。我很怕很怕。怕痛。怕会死掉。怕如果手术不成功讲话会不会有问题。怕像医生讲的那个一八仙的人这样，永远感觉这种麻痹。我是紧握着拳头，紧闭着双眼，紧张得忘记自己要呼吸。

护士握着我的手，一直跟我讲放轻松。我妈就站在我前面，摸着我的脚，因为旁边仪器太多，然后她又必须陪我过完这整程的手术，所以只能站在我前方。这种温度很舒服。

接下来的事情，我只知道医生放了一支支的仪器进嘴里。听到他又说；“你看没有痛的啦，放松一点”。那个过程很像补牙的声音，吱吱的吱了很多声。在那之前应该是开了口腔一刀。可是我没有知觉，也不想直到他放了什么东西进去。只想快点结束这一切。

我想，吱吱声应该是医生正把我的牙切成两半，才方便把它拔出来。他没有跟我解释这个。我讨厌他。当时我的眼泪是像温泉酱喷出来的。心里只有害怕，虽然真的不怎么痛。接下来他跟我说，“你会听到“框”的声音，不要紧张”。更紧张就有咯。眼泪一直流一直流。

虽然不会很痛，但是我feel到他很用力。很用力在把我的牙齿。很可怕的“框框”声。停顿了一整子，又另一个“框框”声。有痛这次。当时我应该流了很多血。却也流了很多泪。整个身体萎缩着，感觉整个气氛很冷。

“拔出来了。”我妈说。我不知道她在场这样看着我拔牙的整个过程是什么心情。换成是我的话，我应该跨掉了。当时我还是闭着眼睛，因为我懂需要缝针，把那个被割开的牙龈封起来。

我没感觉到痛，只是知道他给我缝了很多针。感觉到线就在唇边拉扯着。然后有“tuck”的声音，剪线的声音。这个过程重复了几回。然后就大功告成啦。

起身，漱口。吞药。放棉花。到另一个房间躺着休息五分钟。

护士跟我说，“哪，这就是你的牙，要不要收藏？”。傻眼了我。
我的牙齿真的好大。像自己的母子头那样般的大。可是是已经切成两半的。看得见剖开中间那层白白色的东西。一半蛮干净的。另一半攒了血，还有少许的肉。

我看到自己的牙以后只感觉fatigue，想吐。才知道我一直都怕血。只是一直都否认自己怕血。因为以前是st.john人员，还值班过，看医生缝头破的病人。也许这次知道是自己的血，所以更恐怖的说。

手术完毕。医生给我三天的假期。嘴巴还是麻麻这样。不能讲话。说话会“痴雷根”，脸部已经开始有点肿，不能感觉到自己的舌头。可是不痛。

回到家以后就慢慢感觉到疼痛了。麻醉慢慢过去的时候。牙龈痛，喉咙痛。

口很渴。但用吸水管却也没有力把杯里的水喝了。嘴唇太不是自己的了。我把嘴里的棉花拿出来。整块都是血。有鲜红色，也有变了色的。自己又开始觉得晕了。看着镜子的自己，嘴唇白了。我真的怕血。结果就只能躺在床上休息。我很气馁。肚子很饿，却连milo也喝不到，面包也咬不到。可是我却不想睡。所以我在这里。

肉疼。荷包更疼。一个月的工资就酱送他了。

之前的那个医生跟我说，我的另一颗智慧牙应该也是这种情况。可是我觉得我没有这个勇气再去拔第二次。可是他说趁年轻拔掉是好事。老了牙齿长硬了，比较困难。更何况老了风险更大了。所以 再看吧。

想打晕自己。希望醒来的时候已经完全复原，可以正常吃东西。正常说话。正常吞口水。T.T
转行吧，当牙医是多么的好的一个行业。

岁月的痕迹

鱼尾纹。

不懂什么时候开始，笑起来，眼睛微微咪着的时候，这个岁月的痕迹出现在我的脸上。这样眯眯眼的笑容才是最真实最灿烂的不是咩~所以我还长硬嘴说，我有一对会笑的眼睛而不是老了。这样的笑，笑起来很甜，就像妈妈帮我取的“嫣”字含义一样，笑容甜美。不是我要夸张称赞自己，而是我撑不起瓜子脸的“美”；却也不只是圆圆脸蛋撑得住的“可爱”，所以最抢镜就只有招牌鱼尾纹笑容，还有那个开怀大笑时震耳欲聋的笑声。

前进。

地球不停的转动，已经从轨道上绕了不少光年，当然住在它身体里的每一个生物，都要跟着步伐，前进。所以我前进到现在顶着一个上班族的假面具，再多三个月却要放下这个不舍得放下的假面具，回到已经不想回去的学校上课。所以我前进到自己有鱼尾纹，都没有发现，却也还是不认自己老了，只是承认想法在某些方面成熟了。所以我在爱情里前进到我很理智再为将来铺路，虽然这条路就是这样长跑的喘不过气，却让你学习很多。所以偶尔也会想要停留，歇一歇。可是生活不像游戏，不能中场喊停。

萌芽。

人家长智慧牙，我长智慧牙。我的智慧牙可是萌芽不出来的那种，是需要拔掉的。第一次觉得长牙齿长得那么痛苦的说。半夜打雷的同时也痛到惊醒。当下我真的觉得这颗牙不拔不行，才决定去看牙医，因为自己的整个牙床已经被撑出原本正确的位子， 吃饭会痛，总是不能咀嚼食物到标准可以吞噬的size，而都是大口大口这样吞的。T.T

直到鼓起勇气那样去看牙医，坐上那个恐怖的绿绿色的“牙椅”，被那个圆圆的黄色灯光照着的时候，那一霎那我是把自己的包包抱的很紧很紧的。因为很多很恐怖尖尖的仪器，就放置在可以看见的右手边。而左边，是一个装有两个水龙头的洗手盆。原本医生只是说开些药给我止痛，可是照了x-ray之后下一秒什么都不用开咯。他说，这颗牙是长不出来的了，不拔掉的话会一直疼痛，压力的时候也会发作。可是要拔掉的话，要undergo一个minor的surgery。听到这里我有点崩溃和失落。不懂为什么。然后这样的minor surgery价钱也不便宜。所以我还在考虑当中。他还说，拔掉牙齿以后脸部会有点肿胀，需要两天的MC去疗伤。做么酱恐怖的叻? 如果真的要拔掉，我应该会戴口罩出街上班几天。到时应该也不能吃东西了。不要想面类，可能连粥都会吃得有点痛苦。我是最不能截口的，郁闷啊！

步入社会。

实习了几个月，渐渐地我不想回去上课的生活。不喜欢考试。人生为什么要建立在文凭和考试还有金钱之上？我是不喜欢现在的这份工，但是至少让我学习了不少，还遇到一些不错的seniors。在工作上不能每一次都想读书的时候depends on别人，指望有人会帮你。自己是需要很小心。你也不用指望别人会帮你整理你丢的米田共working paper。反而如果跟到一个不好的senior，就连他的米田共，你都有份收拾。所以人际关系，非常重要。偶尔混熟了，还可以让他们指点一下。社会是更加现实的。

梦想。

自己觉得离自己的梦想越来越遥远。是自己没有勇气去追寻？还是现实里实现梦想是很难办到的事？因为梦想和现实自己在干的事情，完全扯不上关系。

距离。

很多人都问，“哇，你和你男朋友很好料咯，远距离，酱你们不是很久才能见一次面？”
对啊。很久。不要问我， “酱他毕业会不会回来？ ”
还是。“酱你有没有打算过去和他一起？”

我自己也没有答案。三年的感情好像十年那么久。到了一个你太了解一个人的境界，他想什么不用说出口你都了解的时候，想的未来的旅途，早已给他留了一个seat。这段感情唯一最大的绊脚石，是距离。也就因为是距离，大家才会更努力的付出，更珍惜彼此见面的日子。真正懂我的朋友，不会因为我这样“重色”的举动而放弃我们的友谊，反而懂我的，很支持我的做法。我们经历的不是远距离as in different state in Malaysia。这种不是远距离。没有时差，要见面买张机票一个小时内就见到对方，拥抱对方。我们经历的是有时差，要见面买张机票也要等8个钟才能见到面的。这种叫远距离。

远距离爱情，你懂吗？不懂就没有资格戴有色眼镜judge我。

Internship life

It seems like yesterday when we were holding hands, talking about our future on the couch. Blink* And now I'm working as a trainee in Ernst and Young. Well, I know I haven't been blogging about myself, my life for quite some time. I have got too much to tell right now.

Life was hectic for me before 2011 ended, with all examinations and stuffs like Taiwan trip in the middle of school days, assignments and preparation for presentation. Taiwan trip was great as a birthday gift though. I enjoyed hell lot of it and ate a lot of nice food there. Taiwan girls are beautiful, they do know how to present themselves with nice outfit, natural make-up. I wish I could be like them, dressing up nicely to any places, but I'm just too lazy to do so. ha. This is me.

Then comes 2012.

One week of holiday was not really enough before starting internship life, the working life, the VERY hectic one. If someone, anyone close ask me about being an auditor, "Don't be an auditor" is what I would tell in the first place. The nature of auditor is you would never stops working, thinking how to tie the balances, being a computer geek working with dead device for whole day, whole week, and even your entire life.

I figure that this routine life does not suit me although it is true that it's challenging, it gives you a lot of opportunities to go outstation. But this is not I really want to do for 20 years, 30 years until my retirement. Plus, the responsibilities grow when you hold higher post. No no no, not for a typical sagittarius like me. Or perhaps I will still stick my head into this if I could not figure out what I wanna do next.

My seniors always told me so, you either pick a rich man and get married, or work in this field overseas with better employee benefits. Well, my first option is always the former. Ha XD Well, I'm not that kind of person though, I don't like spending money depending on someone. I like freedom. A typical Sagi.

It was my decision to move out and stay with coursemates for this semester. And eventually, I like staying with a bunch of friends to go have fun together, play guitar together, swim together eat and laugh together. Then I felt the very first earthquake in my entire life with them. haha. Peace. Hope everything will be fine in the whole world.

Melbourne. August.

I have booked my ticket to Sydney in August. But, I wanna explore more places other than Sydney since my love is graduating soon. Both fear and happiness comes together. No matter what price I should pay for the trip, I wanna go have a look at Melbourne, as well as Tasmania, skiing? bird watching, dolphin watching anything.. I need a long vacation though. After my internship.

And I would like to say happy birthday to my beloved granny going through her 69th birthday. She is still lovely and cute like before even though her hair turns white and looks more skinny than ever. I love her. Forever and ever.

x.o.x.o

雨天的心情

照片始终懒得po上来这里。是啊，我就是这么一只懒虫。
下雨天，又是冷冷的天气，我喜欢，这样一个人的感觉。
听着不停播放着的歌曲，我偷偷告诉紧绷的心情：“嘿，你可以离开了，这里音乐会帮你待班。”

风扇还是那样散漫的煽动着。被雨淋湿的雨伞撑开踏在地板上。
我？和电脑屏幕面对面的。脑袋里全都是歌曲里的合音，吉他，贝斯，钢琴声…
还有，你睡着打呼的模样。

我知道未来是得走过今天，明天，后天才到达的地方。
所以，今天，明天，后天，未来每一天，我很珍惜。
因为不知道未来会是什么 一个样子的。

今天的我不会因为你不带我去蓝山而感到伤心。
明天的我会放纵自己把东西卸在一旁，狂欢到黑夜。
往前看，我学会的。
因为我长大了。

十月到了尾声。
你会回来，我的生日，还有台湾旅行…
还有很多未完成的来结束这个学期。

还是想说，毕了业，留下来吧！
外国的月亮，没有比较圆啊。
虽然我也一样在追随，西方文化的生活。
我的外国男朋友。

Photographs and Memories

Back to back, my feet stepped on the land called Malaysia once again.
我回到了我的国家，马来西亚。

I was lucky to get another window seat, to fly in the sky and see the changes of the weather, the shape of the clouds, the beautifully shimmered sunlight,  and to feel my way back home. *Tears drop* My eyes went wet. I hate waving hand and saying goodbyes.
讨厌离别。说好再见不远，可是再见却是几百天以后的事情。挥手道别，眼泪却在别过头的时候不听话的掉下来。

"Do not run through this lane" was written on the wing of the plane. Gotcha

Okay. Forget about the sadness and sorrow, let's see the good memories I had there both in Brisbane and Sydney. How to sum up everything? It is too much to share!!! Whadduppp???? (Sounds like Barney now...=.=)

Here are the pressies I received before I left... So touched!! Love you guys always, always and always...

Love this!! CHC Perfume given by Priscilla my colleague aka BFF in Sydney!!!  I love the smell, and I love the Spanish songs she gave to me!

And this!!! Like it like it like it!! A bear look like my BF with "mata sepet"(narrow eyes) given by my lovely housematesXD

What more? The second anniversary's present from my boyfriend. It's a purse, again after two years of time using the same white purse from him. Opps, and a rose. But no picture for that. XD My boyfriend is still bad in giving surprised though. He just can't keep secret!   

Now I am really a  perfume addict. I used to walk by Myer and David Jones after work, purposely to try on some new perfumes. There are some brands I really like such as D&G's "Rose the one", Gucci's "Flora" which I like the most, and also Chloe. But they are really quite expensive though. I would buy them, in the future XD 

This is the first time writing in English for my blog. New try :)The staying in other country was really hard for me at the first time, but eventually, I like the place, enjoyed very much, and didn't feel like coming back. Too bad, I had to. 

So, I would like to voice out my appreciation. :) Special thanks to my sister, Chelsea, who came to the station to get me, and cooked for me although we didn't travel to many places. Thanks for spending valuable time for me and please, come back to Malaysia more often!! 

And thanks, Ken, who made me laugh non-stop browsing our camwhore pictures.

My housemates, Eric and Philippa for feeding me fat fat and white white all the times, drinking American Honey at home together with cheese cake and photoshooting! XD  

My colleagues, Pris, Niral, Ibti, Sara and more for making my days at Voi unforgettable... Miss playing pool with you guys, eating pizza at Pizza e Birra, and pubs time.. haha.. 

Joyce, thanks for the hotpot steamboat time :) stay sweet!

Ryan, for spending time with me and sis. :) Enjoy exchange!!

Most of all, my boyfriend. Too much to say.. Don't be too dependent on me anymore! :)))) love love you

Oh ya, there is my pic behind the scene! :)

Photoshoot for CLAN, with the jacket.

Now it't time for turning into a new leaf. That's why I cut my hair short, very short. Fresher look, younger.

I will post more photos next time. It takes time to select photos!!

All in all, I miss those times in Australia very much!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It was legend... wait for it... DARY!!!!!!

幸福的事。

人家说，澳洲的冬天来得不冷，而9月份天气就马上变温。或者我是一个真的真的很怕冻的人，还是他们根本不是正常的人…

出门去打工我得穿上至少一件丝袜再套上一件黑色紧身裤。衣服每一次我都得穿打底长袖衬衫，一件黑色上衣，然后再套上一个黑色小外套，在而外加上一件比较厚的冷衣。

老板刚刚换了一个新dress code， 员工都得穿黑色衣裤上班，所以每个员工都狂买黑色服装。比较可怜的是我这个快回国的人，国内黑衬衫多的是，黑裤子多的是，可是全都在马来西亚… -.-|||

现在的我叻，已经习惯每一天走上差不多6km的路，每天站上6到8个小时。而每天一起床做的是准备两份早餐。
习惯睡醒一转身就碰到熟悉的脸蛋，然后再拍拍他肩膀说：“贝，醒鸟！”然后再转身赖床个几分钟。

在意大利店面打工，说起话来的手势现在也像意大利人，而且对意大利雪糕现在更是爱不释手。哈哈。真的很好吃呢。

打工回来通常都很累，所以通常我都比男朋友早睡。有天男朋友从身后搂着我的时候， 我迷迷糊糊记得自己说，don't touch me! 呵呵，用英文的说。隔天他还笑我说，我还说了很多好像，it's cold, don't touch me，还有stop it这几句。很搞笑，每次熟睡都会闹笑话。

我们的二周年纪念日在普通的一个星期二，两个人逛街看电影，过了一个不普通的一天。能够握着他的手是一件幸福的事情。朋友问过我说，我会不会有一年是没飞来澳洲找他。我当时是犹豫了一下，因为假期里留在国内可以干的事情很多。我很理智的想了想，觉得自己还是会每一年同样一个假期去探望他。为什么？很简单的，一年看不到碰不到一个你爱的人，我实在办不到。

很开心堂姐和男朋友也渡过了七年周年纪念。她说，七年的日子不算什么，特别的是她和男朋友还是像七年前那么爱着对方。呵， 我不止欣赏堂姐的文笔，我也欣赏他们那么温馨那么牢固的爱情。

今天在一间卖旅品的商店里看到一些很可爱的小靴子。澳洲出了名的靴子特产名叫UGG，品质很不错的，是真皮。他们还制了超小版的靴子，很可爱的说。所以我想可能会去以前会买几个。

我还在懊恼到底要买些什么给家人…错过了老爸的50岁生日，也错过了小弟和mdm的生日，所以想买点比较好的东西当礼物送他们。呵呵。那时拨电回家祝贺，小弟只跟我要一本故事书。哈哈。笑死我了。他们所谓的故事书是像老夫子那样，都以图片代字的故事。

我开始想念他们。没关系，我们很快会见面。=）
有句很经典的话语想在这里share一下。

Goodbyes are not Forever;
Goodbyes are not the end;
They simply mean,
I will miss you,
until we meet again...

xoxo :)

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一直一直都懒得把照片po上来。在离开地球表面到空中乘搭着Jetstar的时候，我拍了着一张自己还蛮喜欢的照片。窗外就是这样蓝蓝的一片，白云白皙得不懂怎么形容。白云中间还因为太阳的照射形成一个圈，七彩的那种。我就坐在窗边呆着看云朵看傻了眼。白白的云，真的很像卡通片里面可以当枕头躺着的云朵，软绵绵的，冰冰的。

现在我住的地方不再是城市，而是一个叫Burwood的suburb。这是地铁站，我在去打工的时候拍的。还偷偷拍了另外一张。很外国feel吧。

打工的地方是city，靠近那里有一个mall名叫Westfield的很漂亮所以也随意拍了。所以效果不怎么好，还闪到镜头的那种。看到吧？有GAP在那里。还有令人疯狂的Zara。

 在Westfield对面是一整排的建筑物。其中有一栋非常复古的建筑，The Strand。我第一次走进这座建筑的时候眼睛睁得好大好大。里面的装潢全是古铜色，灯打得很亮，每一间店面都是木板盖的。下面这照片时电梯。也是木制的。我就是想不通怎么会有这栋这么靠近却不曾踏进这么复古的一栋楼。原来每一栋楼都有连接的出入口。而在这栋建筑入口那里早就放好了一个招牌，built 1891。这栋建筑早在1891年就建好了。超喜欢的说。

最近几乎没有自拍，和男朋友的照片也没拍到几张。因为打工时间太长，几乎每一天都得打工。来了澳洲一个月，三个礼拜都是打工天。男朋友说，对一个新人而言，我非常幸运能够做那么多小时。也许老板真的很看好我呢。呵呵。

今天很开心的是，我拿到在这里赚到的第一份工资。我渐渐爱上这个有点冷漠的城市。其他的不说，这里的街头表演可是一级棒的哟！=）